It was a very hot evening. I thought I was "in labor" but I was only 33 weeks along in my pregnancy. I was scared. I just lost a son the year prior. After spending 10 full weeks on the couch, this little girl came! She is my delight! She is smart, beautiful, discerning and wise. Oh Ella Charis... Be wise to that which is good and naive to that which is evil. Trust mommy for some time. Let me lead you to the good king. He can be trusted. His name is Jesus. Trust Him!

thankful for my blessings

It is late. My kids are all asleep. Night time always offers a time of reflection. I feel excited for a new day tomorrow. I feel sad for all the ways I failed being the "perfect" mother, and yet I want to wake them up and keep playing. Oh how I wish I had a cleaning lady and allowed me all day to play and never pick up a sponge.
 Thank you God for another day with these little people :)